the blog you never want to write...
Here it is then, a blog post I thought (well hoped) was behind me. But it seems this rollercoaster of a life is here to stay. Nothing has felt easy recently, my mood has been a wild pendulum of emotions. Despite constantly trying to start again and stay sitting resting on the landing I've been unable to stop the slow, quiet slide into the darkness that is depression. Part of me really wants to understand why that is, what have been the triggers, what has happened this time - but I also know that doesn't do anything other than create ruminations and questions, judgement and blame. Although I'm pretty confident that what's going on isn't just my mental illness taking a hold, it is the peri-menopause impact being felt. A brain and mind so foggy and tired that my usual reserves are depleted and unable to fully function in keeping me where I would so desperately like to be. The manifestation of all of this though creates my own worst enemy - unable to lift my brain ou...