JoFwise - This is Me

I've always known that I don't really understand emotions or feelings. They come and go and often overwhelm me, but I struggle to interpret them or notice them and realise that they can wash over you without having a devastating impact or taking control. Maybe this is something everyone experiences or this IS how emotions are - the point is I just don't know.  What I'm realising so much during this exploration in the last year is that I missed out on so much development. Childhood is about learning, understanding, developing. Instead mine was about fear, silence, shame. More and more I'm coming out of the proverbial closet to share this with others. But it's hard as so many of the people who caused this are still around and would deny this experience if they were to be aware I was talking about it. Which in some ways cements my truth of what happened.  These last few weeks have been huge in my learning, in understand that I cannot remove my pain or trauma. This ...