Writing it all down...
I really love to write, it's always been a safe space for me. I'm not good at verbal communication especially when it comes to personal things, I've always written friends letters or nowadays emails and texts. I will avoid the phone at all costs. Even having therapy via typing has been a real bonus for my communication style, helping me break down barriers that I wouldn't have dreamt of. And the ability to message is I think a blessing and a curse, I worry I overuse it when I would have waited for a weekly session. But also it provides a space for a journal and somewhere to put my endless thoughts. Which is what this blog is really. A chance for me to express in the best way I know how. It feels somewhat uneasy, that I write here and share it. Like I'm seeking attention and this is a huge fear of mine. That what I'm doing and saying is for attention. When attention is the very last thing I want. But what I do want is understanding. To express these things which...