Content Warning - talk of suicide
Thoughts of Suicide The title isn't meant to be anything to scare anyone. Just following my therapy this week I've been having more honest conversations about the thoughts that literally run through my mind every day at the moment. Part of my homework for this week is to start thinking about what may move the giant exit door flashing at me and constantly on my mind into something less prominent, so I know it's there but I'm not reminded of it 24/7. Talking in therapy turns to actually have been a bit of a start. The realisation I've had these thoughts since I was 12 years old. The first time I made a plan. That's nearly 39 years. Is it any wonder I struggle to move beyond them, or just turn to them when things feel too difficult? What I think a lot of people don't understand is that lots of us carry this around. Suicide ideation. For some it turns into plans, which turns into actuality. But for lots it just remains as thoughts, rough plans, or even a desire...